.Thursday, March 6, 2008 ' 8:16:00 PM Y
finally. solve the issue today! plus i did something. haha. complain!!
termination plus complaint!
i have been thinking hard.
trying to find ways.
find advices. solutions. or suggestions.
but i had none.
jux feel that when one got affected by the other's mood,
i think its because the person meant something to them ba.
i got affected easily! LOL
but well. i think i dun affect anyone. cos i mean nothing to everyone.
work.
maybe is the sense of responsibility in me. i just simply felt bad if i couldn't help to ease the stress or the load.
i utd im only an asst. thats why the more i feel if i can i will try whatever to help and assist.
i wana learn as much as i can. help as much as i can
this is me. my job. it means alot to me. its not just a job.
studies.
tiring. like wad i use to thought it would be.
i thought. thought i will have the determination throughtout my 2.5 years. cos i wana pursue my dreams. my target.
sometimes just feel very tired. really tired in the sense of mentally. till i feel like giving up.
i know i cannot do it. since the day i have choose a different path from everyone.
i know i have to walk down this road alone. no matter how bad i feel inside that im different from others somehow.
but its my choice. i will go on.
21st birthday. its significant to me
and i guess only to me.
who will give it a damn?!? its just a 21st birthday. dun be stupid.
maybe to them its just not another birthday. who cares!
but
to me. the one n only desire i hav for so many years of birthday.
no ones will know how i felt when tons n tons of cold water being splashed on top of me.
im defeated totally in this.
who m i ? i begin to dont recognise myself.
just you and me.. in this chapter of our lifetime.
